2011.12.16

我很不开心...心好痛..痛了几天...昨天是最痛的...

原来需要一个人的时候 被拒绝...是最痛的...

我在乎的人..不在乎我...

他讨厌哭哭闹闹的我..只接受快乐的我..

而我...只哭了两次...甚至在他面前都是强颜欢笑当没事..为什么我崩溃的时候,就不能扶我一把呢..?

冷漠得..就像是之前这样...

心寒..害怕...

叫我滚..我自己贴过去的...

谁记得,在医院的时候....

一个人的时候..

拉住我 说....只有我....所以不能不见...

我接受哭哭闹闹几天几夜的你..

却没人接受一夜拥抱的我....

我的心很痛..

会这样么?

没人理,没人懂...

有些拥抱 不属于我的..尽管温柔..都得还....

谢谢那个..一直守护我的人..你没食言过...从没..

你的拥抱..是最温暖的..

hmm~~

You are part of my life.....

but you not whole of my life...

Still the one i want for night...

so glad to meet you..~

hmm~~~

study...

night..

independence...

i"m still myself..

searching The One..

do you ever saw me?My Love..

If you think im coming back..don't hold your breath

You can’t touch me now there’s no feeling left
If you think I’m coming back don’t hold your breath
What you did to me boy I can’t forget
If you think I’m coming back don’t hold your breath

I was under your spell for such a long time couldn't break the chains
You played with my heart tore me apart withall your lies and games
It took all the strength I had but I crawled up on my feet again
Now you’re trying to lure me back but no those days are gone my friend
I loved you so much that I thought that someday you could change
But all you brought me was a heart full of pain

You can’t touch me now there’s no feeling left
If you think I’m coming back don’t hold your breath

What you did to me boy I can’t forget
If you think I’m coming back don’t hold your breath
Don’t hold your breath eh eh
I was worried about you but you never cared about me none
You took my money and I know that you, you could kill someone
I gave you everything but nothing was ever enough
You were always jealous over such crazy stuff

Move on don’t look back
I jumped off a train running off the tracks
Your day is gone face the facts
A bad movie ends and the screen fades to black
What you did to me boy I can’t forget
If you think I’m coming back

You can’t touch me now there’s no feeling left
If you think I’m coming back don’t hold your breath

Snow

Got a bad mood right now..

is like..many things bothering me..

i got myself lost..

Treating people good is never a way to get people good to you..

never dy, things change..

Suffer..i can't ask..suffer i can't tell..

try to be nice, but no..get nothing..people don't like weak person..

so, we start to pretend like a unknown person..smiling..but duno why..

I wanna ask..why?

i admit i'm weak..i admit im not happy,i'm not happy why i hate by others..just because i'm weak...

because i get hurt..a simple reason...i don't want to act like i'm happy..but there is no way to go...

if i continue to weak..people hate me..people don't like me...

they rather to choose the one who hurt me..because they are smiling..they got no hurt at all..

so i have to start my journey..start to pretend someone..but not myself..

Keep telling myself..got to be me...not others..

Smile when you want to..hate when you need to..

but i'm sad..

i saw someone which is my best friend before..

hate me...because i'm weak...

i got heart..it'll pain..

why..i wanna ask...is it our relationship is so weak..

i know..i never your best before..

but, i'm hurt..when i heard...you misunderstanding me..

but i can't say anythings...accept it..but not debate it..

Sorry my friends..those who support me..

i know i did something wrong again..

but,i'm sorry..

On this moment..

I wish to cry..

Even the one i choose to trust...she never feel it..i'm lost now...

Where should i go..where should i rest..

We should not mind how others think about you..

Be yourself..is enough..

but when someone you mind... misunderstanding you,don't even wanna care you..

How can the heart..not pain..not hurt...not lost...?

How should i do now.......

Snow...

Cold...white enough..Lost...

Mumbling day

Life is so beautiful..

now, i do believe that there is always a sweet after bitter..

Well,i'm missing someone,i guess..maybe...

cause, someone not really know, well, i'm don't feel like tell him too..XD...

what am i thinking now?COMPLICATED....

but, i do know what i want....^^

I met a stupid guy..yup,really stupid..

cause the way he thinking ....hmm..too straight...

You know what i wanna tell you?

Part of it wrong, Part of it correct..

but Nothing right or wrong in love...

cause, feeling is the most important...

duh...actually i don't know what i'm trying to say too= =.....

There is no explaination...why am i trying to explaiN@@??!!

okok..back to normal..

Today is a good day..but too cold....no idea why so cold la this few days..

hmm...i wan Iphone5!!!!shout....maybe it's come true...!!on next month!!!!yayaya...

【痕迹】

当每一段主题 都得上演一样的桥段
每每的害怕重复的谎言，剧情，与身上的伤。
再而相信，投入。。
害怕开始争吵，再来被抛弃。

心想，如果换掉主角，换掉背景，是否能换掉同样的心呢？
才渐渐发觉，碎了的心，是不完整的。

想说 再来一次，我宁愿被爱，因为爱人是很辛苦的。
可惜 败给了自己，老样子的沉入，为一切而付出。

即时贴回去，还是有着【痕迹】
对某个人来说，或许少了点公平
请委屈的，细心呵护这颗心
成为复原后的【唯一】，好吗？

来自一个【相似】的文章。。相似的感受。

右手的无名指？

一个不合身的婚戒 却带着一个那么合身的感情

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合得刚刚好 不离